Author: ro
My mom used to call me a steamroller when I was little. I used to crawl to her bedroom, climb in bed with her and then roll over her. Like a steamroller.
Somehow, this physical quality has transmuted into an uncanny ability to stick my foot in my mouth. I’m now known as someone who often is caught saying things with great heaviness and not realizing the person I am telling them to is being flattened.
I don’t do this on purpose. Most of the time, I’m not aware I do it until it’s too late. Until the look of shock of whomever is standing in front of me gives it away. Or their sudden silence. Or their hurt.
And now, with all this soul searching I’ve been doing, with all this introspection, I find that I need to make amends. Of sorts. For the moment I cannot disclose more than this. This time the steamroller has been put away. Will tread lightly, hopefully, smoothing away the cracks without any weight.
Just don’t censor yourself too much. Your moments of brutal honesty are full of wisdom and sincerity. I was surprised by your candor initially, but it was one of the things that made me immediately cherish you too.
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What Serene said! Those that know and appreciate who you are BECAUSE of these qualities.. for better or worse ;o)
This is all very confusing, rather, it must be very confusing for those of you who are not in my head. Originally, this post was meant to be about someone who’s been in and out of my life for the past year. Well, actually, a wee bit more than that. It’s been a rocky situation and I desperately need to write about it. However, he’s on FB and my posts are broadcast on there as well. I’m in the process of trying to make amends with him (as I believe I’ve hurt him as badly as he has me) and I don’t want to do it online.
That is all I can say for now.
Rest assured, all will be revealed when appropriate. I pray that I’m not making yet another mistake…
Personally I prefer some brutal honesty to some flattering empty words. It may take a long time to accept them and understand them, but in the end, one will be able to deeply appreciate the words and their source, and understand where truth and friendship lies. Don’t censor yourself!
;-*
Ro,
I think, sometimes, brutal honesty is necessary to avoid infection on a wound. With some snake bites, I believe you actually have to cut the skin to allow the blood to flow through and cleanse. Sometimes, albeight rarely, it is necessary.
Love you lots.